Tuesday, March 31, 2009

The Learning Curve

I've had a bunch of people ask me what it's like to be a parent. That's a hard question to answer because it's a mixed bag of tricks. It's fun to stare at my baby; it's frustrating when she's crying and I just fed, changed, and burped her; I love watching Chris with her--seeing how much he adores his little girl; she makes me cry she's so precious, and she makes me sigh with impatience when she wants to eat for 30 minutes (I wish I were better at relaxing and enjoying the moment).

On the way to church Sunday, Chris asked me if I felt older. I don't know if I feel older, but definitely more responsible. Life is no longer about what I want to do when I want to do it (obviously you have to adjust somewhat when you get married, but at least then there is a discussion--there is no discussion with Haven). We are now on Haven time. That means it takes us 3 times as long to get ready in the morning, especially if a diaper malfunctions. We may even be in the car to leave and if she's not digging it, then we're not leaving the driveway. I plan my day around when she's asleep and when she's awake. Trying to be home at 7 p.m. regardless of where I am and how much I'm enjoying it to start the evening winding down process is new too. And, if I get 10 minutes in the bathtub at night before she starts telling me how tired and hungry she is, I'm a lucky girl.

But, it's all worth it when just two seconds ago I heard her stirring in the other room, and I went to investigate. I spoke to her, and she gave me a big smile. So far I'm just a meal ticket, but that's OK if I get a grin out of it.


Sarah Taylor said...

You're doing such a wonderful job, Mommy! And the second the smiles and coos begin, everything gets that much more rewarding. Just take a deep breath and enjoy every second of your time with her, because if you blink just once she'll be 3 before you know it.

The Palfery's said...

Haven is looking so well Jane & Chris! Keep up the great work!

Molly just turned 12 weeks old today! So hard to believe and she is laughing now and is so much fun!

Wishing you both the best this bright Sunday!

Simon, Felisa & Molly